First Steps…


I feel like I’m on the precipice of something new. Like I’m just taking my first steps into another life…

And I want to share it all with you so much. I just don’t know exactly what it is yet.

On Saturday I went to a workshop – it was Elizabeth Gilbert’s Big Magic Workshop and it truly was a magical experience. Something happened in the confines of that space that day. In amongst 1000 strangers, the world turned upside down on its head – enough to move me to want to write something, anything, here.

For years now I’ve said I would never make photography my full time job…

I was scared to do it. I felt like if I did I would lose the love for it. The passion for it would fade because I would be under pressure to get bookings to do the grown up things like pay the bills and the mortgage. But that fear is leaving me.  And also, I’m realising I don’t have to make photography full time, but I sure as hell don’t have to not do it either.

I’m almost at the end of my first year of university.

This time last year, if you’d told me I was going write that sentence above, I would have laughed in your face. I had no idea I was going to sign up for two Level 1 modules and start the journey towards a Creative Writing degree in just a few months time. But it happened, it is happening, and I’ve almost done the first year. Something that both amazes and delights me in equal measures – because, truthfully, I’ve never finished anything I’ve started. I have a trail of unfinished courses behind me. This is the closest I’ve ever gotten to finishing something. And I’m damn proud of that.

We’re moving to Canada.

This is becoming more and more real as time goes on. I’m doing my English test next week, Stuart has already done his. The visa application is underway and so are the job applications. I’m terrified and excited all at the same time. But it genuinely feels like a new beginning and I’m pretty damn proud of that too.

It’s all coming together…

And these feel like the first steps, the first real steps towards a new life. I can’t wait to share more of it with you.


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